"hey. I love you."

salmon and veggies and ice cream for dinner - 400 cal

220 from the day - then 400 at night - I was very specific about the size of salmon, and kind of veggies and amount I had. - I ended yesterday with no exersize and 620 cal total. I need be more carefull at night, when I get anxious I eat...and im anxious when im home.
the ice cream was just indulgent - and in my freezer - I was to depressed to leave my couch last night. literally, I took my anti anxiety, my sleeping pill, and my zoloft on the couch and crashed there.
H and I didnt say a word all night.

now im at work and he just sent me a text.

it said

hey, I love you.

I dont want to text him back. but I have to.

"Hey, I love you too."

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Today i packed more cranberry juice - less than a normal portion because it was the last bit - 40 cal
I also am planning on eating one almond for every hour im at work - 7 cal each 9am-5pm thats nine almonds - 63 calories

I packed a salad 38 cal worth of red and green peppers and organic mixed greens - 5 cal - salad dressing - 40 cal

186 cal thru the day - im hoping I can just stay pumped full of water, cranderry tea, and diet coke? - im going to go get a big gulp and make my afternoon :)

im not sure what the dinner plan is tonight - if i can avoid it at all. sweet. maybe I will try to get .H. to take a walk with me. and then make dinner ge can eat

Moira - thanks for commenting on my blog, typing is nice therapy, its better therapy to know people are listening - your a doll.

.x.x.